24 October 2011
Forest Park Tree Magic
I am writing this pretty fresh off of a 9 day staycation...and nap on the couch. I started off with a Fall beer tasting in Mystic (which I will be writing up) and ended with a Reiki II re-attunement. Lots of motion going on in my world and lots of processing...
I thought this past week off was going to be a testing ground for a new way of working but instead it brought some true R&R. Which is what I needed, apparently. Book-ended by full weekends and lots of inner work.
I've been in the throes of trying to readjust my time and creative business as well as work out where I'm going in my life (and how it all fits together). I've begun to see that it's not as simple as letting go of things that no longer serve me. I must also learn how to let go of things I love...at least in part...in order to move into the next phase of my life. To open up to love and new ways of being. Heavy stuff.
I once rather dramatically stated in a Facebook message that it takes a long time to unravel the threads of a lifestyle you no longer feel a part of. But it really is true. And now I'm standing here looking down at those threads tangled about my feet and am thinking, "How do I step out of this pile?" The work is on-going.
It's all super scary and exciting (I've mostly been focused on the scared lately). I'm trying to breathe my way through it and be open to all the little things that pop up as a result of my work. I want to trust and be open to my actual path...not hold too fast to my thoughts and plans. I want the dream to find and hold me...not the other way around. Because if I'm too rigid the dream could get strangled and hold me down. The Reiki will come in handy with all of this.
No one said achieving my dreams was going to be simple. And the closer I get to that mountain, the taller it seems.
I've been turning to music and poetry a lot lately...
This is my current mantra (yes, more Waterboys music):
Open by Mike Scott
Open to the world
open to spirit
open to the changing wind
open to touch
open to nature
open to the world within
open to change
open to adventure
open to the new
open to love
open to miracles
open Beloved to You
Open to learn
open to laughter
open to being blessed
open to joy
open to service
open to saying "Yes !"
open to risk
open to passion
to peace and silence too
open to love
open to beauty
open Beloved to You
It seems to say it all right now..
XO