18 August 2014
On a walk in Crianlarich, Scotland - September 2012
Today I turn 36. Thirty Six!!! Yikes. I am now closer to 40 than 30...but that's okay. I'm also closer to bliss than I used to be too. Today I am choosing to be grateful and remember that. I have also taken the time to reflect on who I was, and am, not only for my birthday but to re-write my biography for this website and and health coach marketing materials I create going forward. This is not an easy task for me...I tend to procrastinate...
I started writing an outline and it felt too much like a resume...and impersonal...so then I turned to writing it like a blog post. I think this comes closer; the long version. I will continue working on it in the coming days until I have a new, shorter, version for my "About" page.
Some other thoughts that have been knocking around in my brain are all about radical self acceptance. I figure that there are certain things I do and feel that will likely never change...so I am going to embrace them. I decided to list 36 :D
1. I will probably always have dishes in my sink...either clean or dirty...until I get a dishwasher.
2. I will always miss Scotland when I am not there and will always be planning my return.
3. I am a bit of a pushover when it comes to dogs and animals. I want them to feel loved so I let them have their way (I must fix this now that I have Sam).
4. I enjoy sleeping without setting an alarm clock...but also enjoy having morning time. I used to be a night owl, in my younger days :)
5. I tend to be much better at expressing my feelings through writing.
6. I sometimes close myself off so I won't get hurt. Again, having Sam is a big deal when it comes to this.
7. I only take a new bio pic when I'm in Scotland. I feel completely myself there and it shows in the photographs.
8. I think flying is exciting and I am missing airports right now.
9. I don't enjoy cleaning but make the best of it.
10. I don't enjoy hot locations...it's funny I'm in Louisiana right now.
11. I miss having a best friend.
12. I love real books but have embraced my iPad since I travel so much.
13. I don't like having most of my stuff in storage, but don't really remember what I have enough to miss any of it.
14. I need so much less than I used to think I did...as in STUFF.
15. I feel like I am on the right path even on the days I feel so far away from my goals and dreams.
16. I miss going out to eat. Sometimes I like having someone else cook for ME.
17. I love watching my favorite shows, but don't feel as attached to the TV as I used to.
18. I love wearing wellies and foul weather gear.
19. I love, and miss, my northeast and Scotland clothes.
20. I do, however, also miss some of my nice clothes. I haven't worn heels in a while.
21. I don't bother with makeup most of the time and don't really care.
22. I like it when my time is my own and I still want to have my own business.
23. I love seeing new places with friends...hanging out over beers and food in a foreign place is one of my favorite things.
24. I tend to take things personally but am working on it. Everyone has their stuff.
25. I am a worrier. Right now, I worry about Sam :)
26. I work hard at being happy and fall short some days.
27. I cannot be a fake friend. If you are my friend I hold you in high regard.
28. Sometimes I just like doing nothing.
29. I may be a health coach, but I still love to eat pizza and drink beer. The quality of the pizza and beer is simply better now.
30. I love Scotch Whisky...neat.
31. I love spy shows from the 1980s.
32. I have major insecurities when it comes to my talents.
33. I can be very shy in new situations.
34. I always have British money in my wallet. At least enough to take the airport shuttle into town.
35. Whenever I see people in Edinburgh, and I am in the states...my heart aches a little.
36. I actually am pretty darn proud of myself and all of my accomplishments. I just have to remind myself once in a while.
And I know I am forgetting some. Like how I procrastinate...otherwise I would have had my new shiny bio ready for real today, but oh well. I'm a Leo, and I love to tell people my story, but ask me to distill it all into a paragraph and I screech to a halt...lol. Oh, yeah...and I tend to run late...okay. Enough of all this! I'm going to take Sam out for frozen yogurt.
Happy birthday to me!
XO
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