|Rain and Shine|
|Written by Lee Ann Monat|
|Friday, 25 May 2012 00:00|
This past weekend was lovely. I went to a Yankees game with my friend, Sara, and then a play with my friend, Heather.
We didn't have to get up once with "in seat service." Which made for a pretty relaxing afternoon.
Then, on Sunday night I recieved some sad news. I'm not going to go into the details on here, but it certainly dampened my spirits. It also begged the question...how do we honor the joy in our lives when there is sadness swirling all around? It feels almost like a betrayal to feel excited about my plans.
Garlic Fries with Cheese
Monday Night I went to another game, our annual "Ladies Night" out with the boss. This time it rained. It was almost as if the weather was reflecting all the change.
My emotions have been pretty on the edge this last week. I'm closing a very long and significant chapter of my life. I suppose I shouldn't have expected it to be all smooth sailing. It seems like the rug keeps shifting underneath my feet and I'm constantly being asked to re-adjust. So far it's been ironing itself out...I keep rolling with things and, for the most part, all the changes have helped move me along without having much of a chance to think too hard.
I'm simply trying to get from here to there.
I've also noticed that my mood has been a bit strained due to lack of sleep and the consumption of processed food (I know). I would feel badly about myself, but mostly it's really just reminded me of how not to eat. I've been microwaving stuff at home this past week because I don't have any cooking stuff left in the apartment. Not much of an excuse...but it is what it is, for now.
Today marks the end of my life in Queens and my last day at TV Guide Magazine. My apartment has been passed back to its owner and I am free. Free to try and honor the Joy and the Calm...to create the new while remembering that life swirls around me...endings come about and bad things happen...but there is still joy and I am allowed to feel it.
It also reaffirms that we need to follow our dreams because today is all we have.